when you don’t have an awakening story
today i want to ask you something: do you have an awakening story?
here’s what i mean. you know that section on the website of healers, coaches, spiritual teachers etc when they describe their ‘a-ha’ moment? it’s the moment they realize all of a sudden what life is all about, or maybe the moment they realize why they’re so unhappy... the moment they remember who they REALLY are, aside from their 3d ‘self.’
do you have a moment like that?
i don’t.
i used to be really ashamed to admit that. it made me feel defective, or arrogant. also confused. when i first started my business as a healer 7 years ago every business training i attended spoke about the importance of your why, the moment you realized this is what you were meant to do.
both things confused me because a) i didn’t have a moment i ‘woke up’ to who i really was, i had ALWAYS known; and b) being awake didn’t feel related to me, to what i was deciding to do for a career. i didn’t feel like this was what i was ‘meant’ to do, i just felt like it was what i WANTED to do. and that made me feel selfish.
as i continued to engage with the spirituality/healing/personal development worlds, attending trainings, working with clients and continuing to work on myself individually it became even more awkward that i just didn’t have that awakening moment. people connected around their awakening moments and it was always suggested that our purpose/mission CAME from the nature of our awakening story.
in retrospect i’m thankful to have been in so many situations where people focused on their awakening stories. realizing i didn’t have one, and being reminded of it so often, really led me to contemplate what my experience HAD been. and that led to the download of this entire body of work - the #bornawake® download.
when i considered my own experience i realized i had never ‘woken up’ to the truth of my being, or to the truth that this entire world is an illusion. i had been born understanding that i was an expression of the absolute, a unique projection of the infinite, here to expand everything that ever has or ever will be, simply by being authentically and fully my ‘self.’ i was born understanding that none of this is real, it’s all a game, for fun, and also that we all have the ability to transform our realities at will. i was born understanding that we can either be hooked by karma or use this 3d experience as an opportunity to close sh*t out, and create something new.
once i owned this, everything else i needed to understand started to drop in effortlessly. everything that it means to be #bornawake® just flowed through me, clarifying soooo much about my life up until that point.
here’s the thing: i’ve been shown that #bornawakes® didn’t start incarnating until the late 1980s/early 90s. that means all the prior generations were here to awaken. why is that important? all of the spiritual tools, energetic processes, and general life advice being offered is for beings whose core reason for incarnating is DIFFERENT THAN OURS.
once i understood that the world as it exists, was designed to support awakening beings in their awakening journey? i stopped feeling bad that these tools didn’t work for me. i stopped feeling bad that i didn’t want a purpose, i just wanted to have fun and close out timelines. i started owning my mastery and my unique role, understanding that i couldn’t look around for examples of how to create ‘success’ in 3d terms because everyone i could look to was on an awakening path.
instead, i began considering how to repurpose existing tools and processes so that they actually APPLIED to the #bornawake™ mission and operating system. a lot of this was stuff i was already doing in my work on myself and with clients. i just hadn’t understood what i was doing really; or why i was doing it. i just knew that it worked. however once i understood what it means to be #bornawake® it made sense why these things were effective, and i started to lean into them and also expand them into entire frameworks.
i then started teaching the course:complete training for #bornawakes®, facilitating timeline jumps and giving other #bornawake™ beings the tools to truly create their 3d reality at will.
to me, this is important because it proves that #bornawakes® aren’t defective or weird for not having awakening stories. and we aren’t doomed just because the tools designed for awakening beings don’t work for us. the long and short of it is, we need tools and processes designed for our operating system.
when you start to understand the FACTS of this it stops feeling shameful or confusing.
it’s like the person who worries that something is wrong with them when their date doesn’t call back, until they eventually realize nothing is wrong with anyone - that’s just not their person. or the business owner who takes it super personally when someone doesn’t want to hire them after a sales call..until they eventually trust that there is always another client, the one who’s actually aligned.
do you see what i’m getting at? we can convince ourselves that almost anything is our fault, when the truth is most things have a lot less to do with emotion and are just...facts.
awakening tools don’t work for us but that doesn’t mean anything about us. other than, that we’re not awakening! we already knew that, didn’t we?
let’s embrace what it means to be #bornawake® and commit ourselves to the tools that DO work for us. there will be more generations like us coming after...if we do a good job, they will have beings to look to for examples!
if you’d like to experience the tools i used for myself, clients and students feel free to check out a free trial of the portal. the portal is our online platform of activations/meditations/teachings for the #bornawake® operating system. only $9.99/mo, cancel anytime. sign up here.
thanks for reading! i would love to hear what you think of this topic. especially if you struggled with not having an awakening story, too! get in touch here - we love topic requests and questions. until next time,
xx SPIRIT