being rejected, used or taken advantage of for your healing abilities (pulling mastery forward series)
hey y’all! today we are diving into one of my favorite series of posts - examples of what it looks like to pull mastery forward. if you haven’t read it, i suggest starting with this post on pulling mastery forward so you understand the terminology and energetics.
in today’s deep dive we will be looking at a question i get all the time: why do i get rejected, or used/taken advantage of, for my healing abilities?
as a #bornawake®, we come in knowing all of this is a game. combine that with the fact that we intuitively understand we are here more to complete karma for ourselves and the collective than to really BUILD anything, and it can be easy to let ourselves get sidetracked by the lives, problems and attachments of others.
when you understand that life is an illusion and what you want most is to free the collective/earth of attachments, you often end up feeling directionless. rather than having your own north star, so to speak, you latch onto the north stars of others. you focus on being useful and forget to consider yourself in the process. being #bornawake® is a new energetic capacity, which the human operating system has only JUST begun to integrate. therefore in past incarnations you were always still “discovering” that you were here to serve, you were still learning to shed concerns for 3d life in order to “access” the absolute. in this incarnation you’ve already MASTERED these things however there is no blueprint yet for how to work top-down (bringing that absolute connection INTO 3d life). as a #bornawake® you are here to support the human operating system in developing this blueprint.
in a general sense, you are learning how to say “i already know i’m here to serve and all of this is illusion, so i will focus on the way to complete karma for myself and the collective that is the most FUN for me, and which allows me to fully embody and live in my true frequency in 3d.”
as you complete attachments and pull mastery forward, you are naturally shedding your own blocks and resistance to this being enough. the sh*t you’re here to clear is the programming that was required for a bottom-up operating system; the more you complete it, the more your operating system will be able to function the way it’s meant to. (for more about this see directionality).
when it comes to being rejected, used or taken advantage of for your healing abilities there are often MANY origins. for #bornawakes® this dynamic connects to many attachments, on several densities. for this reason it’s important to be compassionate with yourself and understand that it may be a gradual process of ‘chipping away’ at the dynamic in your 3d life, rather than an instantaneous shift.
ok, so we agree that we are fully creating our 3d reality - whether consciously or not? great. looking at your 3d life then becomes the optimal access point to attachments originating at other densities. let’s explore the ways this dynamic could present in 3d, and work through pulling mastery forward.
EXAMPLE 1: FAMILY USING YOU TO HEAL / HOLD SPACE FOR THEIR TRAUMA
this is SUPER common for #bornawakes®. since we’ve come in mainly to complete attachments for ourselves and the collective we often choose families that needs lotsssss of help. lol. let’s take the example of a young boy who’s born into poverty, and although he’s very smart and intuitive his family does not value these qualities. they depend on him to “show up” for them energetically, which he senses intuitively. however there is no outward acknowledgement of this, instead he is continually shamed, rejected and put down by his family for being too sensitive, too emotional, etc. in 3d terms he becomes the family’s ‘scapegoat,’ the one who holds the family’s shadow aspects. everyone can agree he is bad/wrong instead of looking at their own insecurities, the ways they feel that way about themselves. slowly over time he comes to see his natural abilities as handicaps rather than assets, beginning to resent his own sensitivity and intuition and trying to deny them in himself. as an adult he feels disconnected from his own emotional experience and continues to manifest situations in which he is taken advantage of or used by those he loves, and blames himself for these things.
what’s going on energetically? the principal issue for this being’s operating system is that he is denying his mastery. the situation he created in his childhood was an opportunity for him to PULL FORWARD the energetic abilities he had already completed learning in earlier experiences. until he brings these masteries forward and becomes consciously EMBODIED in them in his 3d incarnation, he will continue creating experiences for himself to realize and integrate this mastery.
beings in this situation often have karmic contracts tied to particular past lives and family members that they are wanting to resolve. these could be for example a past life where they abused or rejected the family member who is now abusing them; it is necessary to complete this at the origin life and pull forward the learning (perhaps forgiveness, for self and others) for the attachment to dissolve. there may be and probably are multiple karmic contracts of this nature that will need to be resolved one by one, even if all ten of them were just teaching you forgiveness. this is why you do your best to start at the ORIGIN, since that will complete a bunch at once like dominoes. for specific meditations designed to do EXACTLY this, see the portal.
on a deeper level this being is a MASTER. he probably has serious contracts on a higher density involving being obligated to hold space for, or facilitate healing for, large groups of people. for example a client of mine had a contract where he was an angel deciding whether people went to heaven or hell. his sleep was greatly impaired by this because he spent all night passing judgment on where people would spend their afterlife! he had to release programs and experiences of no one else being capable to do this job, as well as beliefs that beings NEEDED to be punished to learn, in order to finally release himself of this contract. (again, see portal for meditations that walk you through this process).
so as you can see, energetically there are attachments on a karmic level tied to the soul involving past lives. then there are ‘bigger’ more zoomed-out attachments involving what this being believes in necessary for attachments to be completed for the collective. both of these things influenced how he showed up for his family, because he had all sorts of ideas about what he needed to do for people to change and he also had personal karma that he wanted to be done with.
once BOTH of these things are completed, it will be time to look at what stops this being from embracing the truth of who he is and embodying it in 3d. where has he been devalued or shamed for his gifts? of course, this may lead to other attachments about being shamed/devalued - hence the ongoing access of the portal ;)
embracing the truth of his mastery will mean taking ownership of, and PRIDE IN, his unique energetic capacities. it will mean saying no to people who try to take advantage of him in 3d, and starting to see the immense value of his intuitive gifts. the more he pulls forward mastery, the less he will feel himself flipping between an awareness that he is gifted in his mind, but an inability to see that mirrored in 3d reality. this work is about learning to embody our multidimensionality, to experience it in our daily lives. the more attachments we complete the easier it is to live in both at once, and ultimately - to merge them.
EXAMPLE 2: FRIEND, RELATIVE OR LOVE INTEREST REJECTS YOU FOR YOUR SPIRITUAL BELIEFS/PSYCHIC ABILITIES
ok, in this example the being feels shame for their spiritual abilities. they feel embarrassed to admit they are psychic, afraid to admit to themselves that they sometimes see/know things that come true, and they hide away this part of themselves. they devalue their abilities and beliefs as ‘woo-woo’ or minimize them when speaking to others for fear of rejection. then, their worst fear comes true - a person they greatly respect or admire rejects them for their beliefs and abilities.
for this example i will share from my own personal experience. i spent my childhood denying or pushing away my abilities because i was in a very traumatic and unsafe situation and being sensitive in any way created more danger for me. being in touch with my intuition posed a threat to my survival because i needed to be on guard all the time - there was no space to process feelings, so it was better to shut them down.
as i grew up i often had dreams that would come true, i felt drawn to psychics and always resonated with spiritual teachings but i still felt for a variety of reasons that acknowledging my gifts was dangerous. i also have extreme psychic abilities and fairy energy in my maternal bloodline and witnessed my grandmother shut down her abilities out of fear, my mother do the same out of low self-worth and trauma.
i began stepping into my abilities in earnest when i was 16 and spent years developing them solely as a personal healing tool. when i was about 22, after years of in-depth trauma therapy i started to feel like this could be my path. i devoted myself to work with my first mentor and started charging for readings etc, something i’d always done for free. about six months into this process i began receiving visions from a guide about a friendship having the potential to turn into something more. this guide was very intent about our ending up together; i was new to all of this, and did not understand that guides have opinions and it was up to me whether or not i WANTED that experience. i felt like i was being shown my ‘destiny’ which felt comforting and so i did not consider too hard whether or not i actually wanted to be with this person.
when i shared my visions with my friend, he got defensive and said he felt manipulated. i felt i was sharing where i was at in my process but he was not available for that. he kept saying he didn’t feel any of this was real. instead, over the next six months as i dived deeper and fully committed to becoming a healer, he pulled away from our friendship. at that time i was running a small manifesting group that he had joined; after a few months he sent me a message saying that he wasn’t going to come anymore because ‘i wish you all the best but i just don’t believe in what you’re doing.’
hmm - thanks? i felt i had lost my friend to things beyond my control. i felt terrified that i would never meet someone who accepted me for who i was. i dived deeper into my commitment to myself and what i was doing and of course everything worked out. but looking back with what i know now i could have saved myself a LOT of drama!
what was going on here energetically?
first off, i had karma with this friend and also with the guide who was trying to play matchmaker. this experience taught me how to complete contracts with guides - something that i didn’t know was possible prior. everything besides the absolute is operating/expressing in a DENSITY, which means ATTACHMENTS ARE FORMED. we as #bornawakes® are here to pull absolute energy down into all the densities, completing attachments and freeing up space as we go :) **this is actually a new ability for OUR operating systems, and it’s one of the teachings in the portal i’m most proud of.
i had to complete the attachments with this friend (this had to do with being shamed/rejected for being myself in a past life where we ended up together), as well as my relationship with this guide who wanted to FORCE people into relationships. this had to do with believing i could see what i needed for myself, rather than relying on a guide to do it. it was a HUGE ownership of my mastery to stop relying on guides and start relying on my OWN ABSOLUTE SELF. i also got to witness that doing this helped my guide as well, because it freed him up to discover what it would mean to work with others from a place of sovereignty. whether he was ready for that or not, when he did decide he wanted that he also would have one less attachment holding him back.
when it came to pulling these things forward in 3d, it had to do for me with believing i could meet and fall in love with someone who accepted me for who i was. at that moment in time, having that felt IMPOSSIBLE. so that is where i dove in and focused on healing. as i completed and released traumatic experiences from childhood around this, i began to feel more worthy of being met/matched in my true frequency. this allowed me to manifest my next relationship with someone who DID see these things about me, and who was just as interested in spirituality and energetic abilities as i was.
i do need to share, there were also multiple lives here that came up around being burned at the stake! lol. and for me that was very tied to sexuality because usually in the lives where i was killed/shamed i was also the ‘single girl’ in the community. so not only was i psychic but i was an outsider in society; this led to programming that i had to be alone to be a healer/psychic, as well as that i would be scapegoated for following my heart.
the tools in the portal are the tools i myself used to move through these attachments layer by layer; they allow you to weave back and forth between 3d life and the different densities/attachments. the masteries i pulled forward were around being able to be myself and be loved; embracing and owning my spiritual/energetic abilities; and learning that i am able to be SOVEREIGN in my 3d life/expression rather than relying on other energies.
hopefully these examples show you that it’s an ongoing process with the intention of pulling forward more of who you truly are to be expressed through your 3d self. it’s about learning to identify WHERE you are getting stuck in pulling the truth of who you are forward, so that you can complete that attachment and be FREE!
your masteries are the abilities, assets and qualities that make you, YOU! they are intimately intertwined with your true frequency. as such, the more masteries you pull forward the more you will become an embodiment of your true frequency :)
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xx SPIRIT